The Finale: A Collection of Memories

Well, this place has served me well. It was originally opened up just to follow the stupid blog trend, but unexpectedly, my blog outlived every other one with the only 'competitors' being Bristan's and Dornel's. After awhile, I became upset that I had to use this site, a site that should have been used as a personal diary for expressing my daily thoughts and feelings, to entertain people. That's probably when my blog got boring, when I stopped giving a shit about being funny or making people WANT to come here. That was around the middle of this year, if I'm not wrong after the stabbing incident with Dornel.

This blog will serve as a collection of memories of my late Sec 2 year and my entire Sec 3 year. It holds memories from the first G-Fest, 2009 OEP and many many outings. My first anime convention is also documented here.

I don't really know what to say anymore, I was thinking of typing up a storm but I'm going blank already. Basically, I'll start up a new blog soon after I'm done doing designs and shit, hopefully it'll be less bleak. But I doubt it.

Goodbye, otakusaurus.blogspot.com.

Also, this is the 301th post. I suck at countdowns.

-Haruhiist

Countdown2: Castle Fight

I told you it's epic.
But no one believed me.

NOW YOU KNOW! NOW! YOU! KNOW!

-Haruhiist

Countdown3: 17th December 2009

I woke up at 1.
I camped by computer until 2.
I showered.
I checked the anime sites, nothing.
I surfed the internets doing nothing of interest.
I played the PS3 for an hour.
I unlocked Thermal for the Intervention.
I played Project Diva for about 30 minutes.
I re-installed Planetarian.
I cleaned up my computer.
I played DotA.
I ate dinner.
I played more DotA.
I lied.
I went to sleep.


^depressing style of writing.

-Haruhiist

Countdown4: GFest December '09

Actually nothing interesting. Hanged around, played Modern Warfare 2, ate at Sakae Sushi, slept with Jon Wei and Thomas, woke up, more Modern Warfare 2, went for McDonald's at West Coast Park, came back, even more Modern Warfare 2, left. Same old, same old.

On the way home, took a taxi 'cause I was lazy and didn't want to go to Clementi to top up my EZ Link card and then have to take MRT to Commonwealth and take that bastard bus home, so I took a taxi. The guy got lost (instead of turning right at SP, he went straight up) and then by the time he found the way to my house, the meter should have been around $12. But he was nice, he turned off the meter after he realised that he heard me wrongly (he thought I said Holland road, not Holland hill) and reduced the meter to $7 and paid me back the change from his own pocket. He also sounded really depressed about the whole thing.

Makes me feel good that there are nice people like that still existent. I thought he made the roundabout trip just to increase the meter fare.

-Haruhiist

Countdown5: Reasoning

When you want to take a team game to the next level, the competitive stage, your team has to want to go there with you. Obviously you guys don't take DotA very seriously, so I can't really do much about that.

When you want to take a solo game to the next level, it's only you, yourself that has to want to reach that next level. Hence, I took Dissidia as my solo competitive game. :)

/fillerpost'd

-Haruhiist

Countdown6: The Local Dissidia Tournament

Well, tournaments sure do have a pressurizing atmosphere. Everyone's hands were shaking during the rounds in the 1st bracket, even the organizer's. I nearly lost my first match because of nervousness, Randall and Dornel both lost because of their nervousness I guess. And after that loss, they became even more nervous because after you lose once, if you lose again you're pretty much out. Though it's pretty evident that when there's no pressure all of us become much better players, shown by how Randall dominated his last opponent, after he found out he was already out of the tournament and just played for fun and Dornel beating the tournament winner with his Garland after the tournament.

In any case, that nervousness broke me in the finals when I used the wrong move because I wasn't thinking right, but I guess there's no point bitching about it now.

It was definitely fun, everyone there was nicer than I expected. One of them even shook hands with everyone that he fought, before and after the match. And Louis Teo was in the LAN shop which was next to where we were holding the tournament, and when he came out and asked me what I was doing, Dornel replied Dissidia, then Louis was like "Haha! You all no life ah!" and then in comes Aeon who is another tournament participant, gave Louis that 'Fuck Off' look, and said something about nothing being wrong with playing PSP.

In the end, I dominated my 2nd round which got me into the semi finals, where I had to fight a super defensive Squall. I would've called him out for EX Camping, but his blocking was so good I figured I'd just be better off doing the same thing as him. When I got to the finals which was a round robin format between 5 players, which means every player fights each of the other players and the one with the highest W/L ratio wins. I won my first match, lost my second, won my third match and lost my fourth which is because of the panic. I could've won it, but I did the wrong thing. Gotta keep calm next time.

For the Tiebreaker round (There was one guy with 3W1L, 3 people with 2W2L and one guy with 1W3L), I lost all my matches. I seriously can't fight Cloud for some reason, and for Kefka that was just a really bad map.

In the end I got 4th place out of 20 participants which is already pretty good in my opinion. My 2 wins in the finals was against the Tournament Champion and 1st Runner Up, so I guess the Top 5 were actually all pretty even. I got complimented, heard people talking about me a few times, though for those I'm not sure whether they were good or bad comments. I did hear one that was like "Damn that guy Haru dominated everyone so far".

Hehe.

Good feeling, can't wait for the next one. Hopefully all 3 of us (assuming Dornel and Randall still interested) won't be so nervous next time and can get to at least the semi finals together.

-Haruhiist

Countdown7: Top __ Lists for Dec 2009

Top 10 Anime:

1st. Clannad and Afterstory
2nd. Code Geass and R2
3rd. Toradora!
4th. Gurren Lagann
5th. Kanon 2006
6th. AIR
7th. Bakemonogatari
8th. Kimi ni Todoke
9th. Asura Cryin
10th. To Aru Kagaku no Railgun

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Top 5 Male Anime Characters:

1st. Kamina of Gurren Lagann
2nd. Lelouch vi Britannia of Code Geass and R2
3rd. Arararararagi-kun of Bakemonogatari
4th. Sunohara Youhei of Clannad
5th. Kyon of Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuutsu

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Top 10 Female Anime Characters:

1st. Aisaka Taiga of Toradora!
2nd. Furukawa Nagisa of Clannad After Story
3rd. Shana of Shakugan no Shana
4th. Fujibayashi Kyou of Clannad
5th. Ibuki Fuuko of Clannad After Story
6th. Canaan of Canaan
7th. Shirley Fenette of Code Geass
8th. Horo of Spice and Wolf
9th. Kamio Misuzu of AIR
10th. Sengoku Nadeshiko of Bakemonogatari

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Top 5 Anime Pairings:

1st. RyuujixTaiga of Toradora!
2nd. NagisaxTomoya of Clannad Afterstory
3rd. LelouchxShirley of Code Geass
4th. WhatshisnamexSenjougahara of Bakemonogatari
5th. YuiichixAyu of Kanon 2006

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Top 3 Video Games played:

1st. Final Fantasy Dissidia
2nd. Valkyria Chronicles
3rd. Defense of the Ancients

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Top 5 Events of the Year so far:

1st. Anime Festival Asia '09 and ILOVEANISONG
2nd. Participating in the first local Dissidia tournament
3rd. Passing the Additional Mathematics retest
4th. OEP with the new class of faggots
5th. Offending a woman with strange hair by looking at her

Feels like I missed out a few.

-Haruhiist

Countdown8: Like a spring breeze

Being thrashed in Dissidia is a very refreshing feeling. Maybe because I'm the best amongst the people I know so it feels good to know there are more challenges out there. Also because Dissidia is a 1 on 1 solo fight where you can't blame other people.

Being thrashed in DotA is a fucking shitty feeling. Maybe because I'm only slightly above average amongst the people I know so it feels like shit to know that I'm not the best that will climb the ladder of challenges first, not that my friends give a shit about that. It's probably also because I lurk DotA forums and played DotA for the longest time, and was the best by far when we all started playing together. Now I'm damn useless. Also because DotA is a team game where your teammates can royally fuck it up for you.

Hm..

-Haruhiist

Countdown9: Countdown

I can't tell whats worse, dealing with 'lawl' every 2 fucking seconds or dealing with stupid shit agi carriers and Sacred Warriors who can't do shit, Spectres that are fucking stupid and Zeus' who don't have bottles. Motherfucking hell.

tl;dr, fuck everyone.

2 days to tournament.

-Haruhiist

Countdown10: Cineleisure

Went over to Cineleisure at 11 to accompany poor Thomas, since I knew he'd go 30 minutes earlier. In the end everyone else came relatively late except Jon Wei, Merrill was about 10 minutes late, and the rest are too long that I forgot about checking time.

Ate at Kobayashi, the Japanese place with Fast Food rates. Never eat the Beef Bulgogi there again, tastes cheap and salty.

Walked over to the Dungeon at Park Lane Mall, computers fucked up on us so after about 30 minutes of frustration we went over to Chambers. Played a few games of L4D2, Merrill got bored, then the 2 groups seperated. Me, Randall and Dornel played Company of Heroes while we thought Merrill and Jon Wei were playing StarCraft, but all 4 of them were L4D2ing. When Randall and Dornel played Red Alert 3, I left. Randall followed awhile after.

Was damn stone on the way home on the MRT, until I missed my station and had to go to Dover to take my direct bus home. Depressing shit. Then when I was getting off the 105 bus to the bus stop outside my house, I accidentally slapped a woman with the side of my bag, and no time to apologize cause it happened when I got off.

And 2 people got way too close to me today. On the way to Cine, I was standing in the corner of the MRT door, like where the small wall is thats attached to the seat. A guy walked up to me, stood maybe 15 cm away from me, facing me, then put his arm over my head, like hes leaning on the wall of the MRT. On the way home, on the 105 bus, this girl walked up to me and stood next to me, and kept moving towards me during the whole ride until I got off.

Meh.

-Haruhiist

Ohoho

I think I'm just trying to filler post my way towards post 300.

Just to clarify, this blog and its posts are not my 'cries for help'. I'm just posting what I think here, so that one day I can look back to this place and hopefully think 'Haha, I was so naive back then'. Unlike Dornel and his blog, I'm not thinking about the readers at all, I don't care if you all think this is boring or uninteresting or not entertaining.

That is all.

-Haruhiist

Approaching the end

This is the 289th post. This blog will probably be down by the end of December. :)

-Haruhiist

Asura' Cryin

On a happier note (within 2 hours of the last post nonetheless), Asura Cryin is a great anime. I was actually getting bored at episode 18, and I stopped watching there, but now I've continued and watched until 20 and it looks like it's going to have a great continuation. Though I keep expecting Tomoharu to make himself an Asura' Cryin in desperation.

I hope Chihiro gets faster and finishes off the next few episodes quickly.

-Haruhiist

What an emo faggot

I feel so fucking.. er, faggot.
I can't tell what I want and what I don't want anymore.
I can't tell if I'm having fun or pretending to fulfill my life.
I can't tell if I'm happy or frustrated.

I know I have fun watching animes like CLANNAD, I know I had fun spending 50 over hours on the CLANNAD game, I know I have fun theorycrafting for Dissidia and DotA, I know I had fun fighting people on Dissidia's online play, I know I had fun at the anime conventions I've went to, I know I have fun drawing no matter the result, I know I have fun playing the piano learning anime-based songs.

I don't know if I have fun playing DotA every night with everyone, I don't know if I have fun going out with everyone, I don't know if I have fun listening to all of you talk, I don't know if I have fun going to sleepovers, I don't know if I really want to go to any of these outings or sleepovers, I don't know if I have fun talking to any of you.

I'm having a problem.

I know I love anime, theorycrafting for games, playing games in general, drawing and piano because I choose to do these things myself. Other than people calling me an otaku fag, which already stopped, there is no influence on my decision to do these things or not. I love these things naturally and want to do them purely out of my own will.

What I can't tell is... do I have fun with everyone else. If I don't talk to anyone, I hve no one to talk to when I need to. If I am not in the mood to talk to anyone, I still have to bear with it because if not there's a negative influence. If I don't want to play and have no good reason, I'm a faggot. If I do play and play purely my way, shouting and screaming at anyone who irritates me, I'm a faggot. If I don't ever go out with anyone, I'm a faggot.

These thoughts only started when I realised I've spent 3 years knowing Merrill, he was the one who eventually linked me up to everyone else, because we were coincidentally in the same class in year one. I was still a happy, random kid back then as far as I can remember, but I've changed dramatically since then. I'm consciously refusing anything I don't like without a thought of other people, I scold anyone whom I personally think is doing something wrong, and I like pushing people under me through words or actions.

I recently realized I don't like a lot of the things he does, maybe it's because we were playing DotA at the time and I realized that the rest of us have this vague sense of seriousness in playing, except Randall 'cause he's fucking whiny. Jon Wei, Thomas can be rallied into being serious, Dornel is a bit too enthusiastic sometimes and it pisses me off when he denies it, but ultimately he can also be serious. Merrill is only serious, from what I've observed, when his personal KD is really fucked up, or when he's just pissed off. And even then, he only gets serious from the occurence of these things once in awhile.

Lots of people tell me 'it's just a game, there's no reason to get so pissed off about it'. As someone who spends his hours on the DotA forum, reading little bits of info here and there that has resulted in my amassed knowledge of DotA and Warcraft 3 mechanics, I have my pride. I play ultimately to win, I enjoy the feeling of dominating my opponent. Hence, I love it when I win, I may not hate it when I lose because the enemies were competent. I will hate it if it was because my team was not serious.

After thinking about that, I can't tell if I'm actually having fun with the rest of you. Maybe it's because I need to fulfill this 'requirement' called 'having a life'. A want that I consciously deny that I have, but unsciously have. I'm a bit of a non-comformist, occasionally I do things that are unorthodox to be different, unique. But I myself know that I feel that pressure to be 'normal' for most things. I don't want to be a social outcast, I don't want to have my only friends be those over internet forums, MSN or worse still, the girls in my visual novels. Maybe that's why I force myself to go out, to hang out with everyone and to 'have fun'.

I can't even tell what kind of impact this will have on everyone, if they happen to read this post. I can't even say I have another month before school starts to sort out my mind, communication happens every day. I have ultimately until the next conversation starts to get it straight.

-Haruhiist

My current Techies build

I don't think anyone cares, but for anyone whos wondering how I play my techies:

Lv1: LandM
Lv2: Stats
Lv3: LandM
Lv4: Stats
Lv5: LandM
Lv6: RemoteM
Lv7: LandM/Stats/Suicide
Lv8: LandM/Stats
Lv9: Statis/Stats
Lv10: Stats
Lv11: RemoteM

After that it's all stats with Remote at level 16.

Starting Items: Mantle x2, Branch x2, Tango, Clarity x2 OR Healing Salve
Take Clarities if you're double laning, salve if you're soloing.

Follow up in this order: Force Staff, Aghanims, Guinsoo

You shouldn't be any richer. Play pusher. I took this build from YamateH, whom is a Kingsurf player if I'm not wrong. He used this techies in a competitive game and won, he solo'd the lane by the way.

-Haruhiist

Play to win

Play to Win

I just read this entire article.
Now I'm put in deep thought.

What I got from this article was:
- Use any means necessary as long as the elitist pro bastards think it's alright.

So there are certain things that 'bring the game to a whole new level', and things that 'completely break the game until it's not playable'. Those would be the unblockable custom combos and Akuma respectively.

I wish he addressed things like infinites, would those be considered 'a necessary means to be used to win', or something that 'breaks the game'.

Bah.

So the rules are set by the pros of the community, those who find a counter to these 'cheap' tactics. I only play 2 games seriously, Dissidia and DotA. Both of these games have incredibly annoying tactics that you have to deal with when you're playing people who 'play to win'.

In Dissidia, it's infinite combos.

In DotA, it would be backdooring. I guess to pubs it would be ganking all game but we all know thats a legit way of playing.

In Dissidia, I play by rules that banned EX Counter, EX Burst. Even though I already know ways to counter those tactics, fake out the enemy and make them waste their EX Guard. Still, I ban it for some reason. I wonder why, was I just pissed off with being beaten in a single HP attack that led to a Burst which would do more than enough to kill me?

In DotA, you counter backdooring with TP scrolls. Only problem is, backdooring can make or break your push. You're all 5 heroes on the enemy mid lane, you're raxing them, ah but there's a freaking Clinkz at top lane breaking you in and he's already gotten to your throne's first tower. It's annoying, I find it pissing, am I supposed to deal with it?

The Dissidia community has varying views and hasn't grown enough to talk about EX bursts and EX counters yet, but the DotA community has been there for a long time. Even now, after checking so many times, I can't tell if backdooring is allowed or not. In the general public community, it's frowned upon. No one likes it, no one wants to deal with it, no one uses it. A few weeks ago Dornel was arguing with me, saying that he plays to win, he doesn't give a shit if the act is frowned upon or not.

After reading that goddamn article, I now have second thoughts about what you can call my Gamer's 'Code of Honour'.

Fuck.

-Haruhiist

Drama

Just cause my little brother got 217 in PSLE, theres a shit load of drama at my house and I'm getting pulled into the bullshit. Parents trying to decide whether to appeal for Independent or not, and whether or not it will affect Barker's acceptance of my brother.

Damn pissing, when I said Barker has more gangsters and ah bengs than Independent (which you cannot deny is true), my dad said that it doesn't matter cause there are gangsters in our house, which is basically saying I'm a gangster.

What the hell?

My dad needs to redefine gangster in his vocabulary.

-Haruhiist

Anime Festival Asia '09

I woke up around 7:30 in the morning that day, got dressed and got to Dover MRT right on time at the designated meeting time, which was 8 or 8:30. I can't remember clearly anymore. Saw Thomas, then waited for Samuel for 30 minutes and we got to City Hall by about 9. Met up with Randall and 2 of his friends from Barker, then lined up for tickets until like 10. We went in and walked around, there wasn't much interesting except for a friggin Ichinose Kotomi figure that was priced at $80. I wanted to buy it, but was afraid I'd find something more appealing to me that would be out of my price range after I bought it, so I left it there.

Little did I know that I would come back to have a OHMYGODWHERETHEFUCKDIDITGO expression on my face about 4 hours later that day.

There wasn't really much to see, no incredibly impressive booths but the atmosphere was wild. It was incredibly crowded, probably because it recieved a lot of internet hype and advertisments and all that. Probably the only convention where foreigners come from overseas just to visit and walk around the convention. E.g. not guests that were invited.

Noisy, pushy, lots of free stuff. All of us got this huge plastic bag, and after walking around for awhile (I split up from the group a multitude of times), me, Jon Wei and Thomas went to line up at the KKnM line that lasted about 3 blocks of stores. With each block of store being about a 30 minutes wait, we stood in that line for 1 and a half hours. I nearly started crying because I'd been standing for the whole day already, and it was 11 when we started queueing. My gosh my back ached like all hell for some reason. In the end all I bought at KKnM was a Shana A4 folder. But I was happy with that.

After that went to eat lunch with Jon Wei and Thomas at the food court in a different tower. A cheaper, less crowded one. I bought overpriced chicken rice that Jon Wei thought was cute because my rice came in a pyramid shape.

Then everyone left, and it was just me and Samuel. I bought a Tsukimiya Ayu figure from the shop that had the Kotomi figure (I snatched the Ayu figure, deciding that I wouldn't be regretting anything else that day).

About 2 hours later after wandering with Samuel for damn long, I found out my Ayu had her leg broken off. Went back to the shop and asked if I could get a refund or a replacement, they told me there was no warranty at the marketplace but they told me how to fix it.

Anyway, went on to Anisong later that night. I love fucking concerts, YES. The singers sure do sing different in LIVE! compared to Studio recorded songs. Nakagawa Shoko has a much higher pitch in real life, and she screams a lot.

"YEAH! YEAH! YEAH! I, ah.. RABU SINGAPORREEE! I RABU ALL OF YOU!"

Wow, but that was lovely concert. I loved Miku's performance, I saved my glow stick for that glorious 10 minutes. Too bad, it was only 10 minutes. She performed World is Mine, Miku Miku ni Shite Ageru and one other song that neither me nor Samuel could remember. Their all Project Diva songs though.

I stood for almost 1hr 10mins before my legs finally gave up on me (about 3 songs into Aniki's performance). I sat for the rest of the concert except for the final 2 songs, and the Shoko + Aniki 1st time together song.

A $100 well-spent in my opinion.

LOOT OF THE CONVENTION:
- Anisong Ticket
- Anisong Pass
- IDOLM@STER Fan

- Shakugan no Shana A4 File
- Tsukimiya Ayu 1/8 PVC Figure
- Nakano Azusa Keychain

-Haruhiist

Considering

I'm wonder if I should go for Makino Yui's concert at EOY. It's a massive $49 at cheapest, which is essentially all the money I'll be getting. I like her music, but if I go for it, it means two things. One, I'll be going home super fucking late again. Second, I won't even be able to buy the super cheap bargain deals like the $25 Max Factory Suzumiya Haruhi figure. I'll end up shooting myself if something like that appears again.

Hard to choose, hard to choose.

AFA post will hopefully be the next one.

-Haruhiist

Notes to self

Just a (few) reminder since I check this shit everyday.

- Do NaruHina req.
- Do DF req.
- Do THATOTHERFUCKINGREQ.

- Make AFA09 Blogpost filled with camwhore (oh wait)
- Fix PS3

- Find fags to Dissidia with (and consequently destroy)
- Get better at fighting that faggot, Cecil

- Watch those OVER9000 episodes piling up on me

-Haruhiist