Friday, February 27, 2009

A dying flame

Well, it's official. My blog is starting to wither away. The chatbox is ultimately dead, despite my daily count of about 11 visitors. I have given up on posting since what I write about tends to either be just a recount of my day, and I personally don't find it very fun to read. I don't really enjoy reading other people's posts anymore either. Bristan's are kind of emo now, but that's just his life's current status apparantly. Merrill's just make me go 'wtf', and Dornel's tend to piss me off. But then again, whatever he does pisses me off, so what the hell.

I'm thinking of killing off this blog, and taking a break from this stuff. Maybe make a new one with a template more fitting - only thing is that I've never been able to make the archives work in a HTML template, which is why I'm using a default layout with my custom banner. Recently been looking at CLANNAD and Haruhi skins, but there are no layouts with a theme centred around anime.

Anyway, let's just recount. In point form.

- Almost late for school, maid didn't wake me up.
- Stoned through English, forgot to type out Diagnostic test.
- Also; got selected to pin up my compo on the notice board as model essay.

- Got pissed at Dornel for some reason or another, but didn't tell him.
- Didn't eat breakfast - no money. Saving for lunch.
- Went to Audi 2.

- Played around with a sweater we found on the floor (The pull-over kind, the one you usually see girls wearing).

- Since Dornel Marcus and Darren were asking if it was a boys or girls, I sniffed it, casually said it was a girls and then gave it to them - then went to sit down because they were pissing me off.

- Later on, Dornel threw it at my face, got pissed and randomly tossed it into a stampede of guys coming in. One of them picked it up.

- Prefect girl came along and asked where was her sweater, since she saw us throwing it around. I think, I didn't see.

- Marcus Darren and Dornel went off saying stuff like 'Walao Sheep, not a gentleman' since I didn't help out in retrieving.

- After Founder's Day Celebration and when I went to toilet, tried to go find the girl to apologize but I couldn't find.

- Went for Drama, came home.

Depending on the circumstances, I might not kill off the blog. Anyway, with me being pissed at near everything recently, my life has been kind of miserable. Dornel is a fag everyday, at all times, Darren is crazy and his over-hyperness pisses me off. Especially when in the morning he comes to bug me, and when I'm stoning, he'll whack my back and then be like "Like that lah, Sheep." If you were in 2.05 last year, you know what I'm like in the morning.

And theres really no one else in the class I talk to excessively - not counting the scholars and the China guy. Speaking of which, china guy is another source of misery.

Also; I'm in debt. 6.50 to Zong and 3 to Darren.

- HARUHIIST

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Disgaea 3

I feel obliged to try making a game review. Unable to tell if I will fail epicly or not. Anyway, if you are looking for the blogpost that is based on the story of my life, look one post down. Consists of info about Thursday and Friday.


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DISGAEA 3
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I bought this game knowing damn well what it was. What it would be, what the gameplay is like, and what the battles would be like (Attack Combos, Geo panels, throwing). There were some things I didnt expect though. Even though this is an SRPG, the story isn't compelling like, say, Final Fantasy games (not counting 12, I hated that story). Instead, it's supposed to be humorous and funny, which can keep you coming back for more anyway.

P.S. This is biased review much.
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STORY - 8/10

Well, I expected a fully stupid funny story. From what I remember of past Disgaea games, they consisted of basically - a joke storyline that makes no sense and is centered around jokes and the like. I never really remembered anything too serious. But D3 surprised me, Mao's story actually has some sad parts to it. Even though it has a fair share of it's own jokes, the purpose of the story is mostly centered around Mao's past - something unique to this game, as far as I remember. And the sad parts always come unexpectedly, and pretty much always got me by surprise when I expected stupid jokes coming my way.

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GAMEPLAY - 9/10

Gameplay is the same as the other Disgaea games. Battles are played out on a grid system and you have a base panel where you can spawn out your team of unique or generic characters. You fight with either normal attacks or special techniques/spells. Techniques don't have to be melee range and even sword users or spear users have ranged techniques - which is what you'll be using for most of the battles. Spells are devastating AoE skills that can facerape an entire team, with one downfall. You can't combo them. Now with other spells, if 2 characters are in close 'intimacy' with each other and if you're a lucky bugger, if both of them use a technique on one monster then they may combo. E.G. If your Mao uses Impaler Drop and Almaz uses Blade Rush both on one prinny, there is a chance to perform 'Impaler Rush' or 'Blade Drop', which will consist of both characters performing their attack in quick succession dealing extra damage. An important element because it'll get you past most battles if you combo well.

Another thing is Geopanels. These are special gridsquares that have special effects imprinted on them thanks to any Geoblocks standing on a specific geopanel. For example, if a geoblock with the -50% defence effect were sitting on a blue geo panel, all the blue geo panels in the map would have the -50% defence effect, resulting in whatever character standing on the blue geo panel to have -50% defence. It's pretty useful if you position them to your advantage.

And then theres lifting + throwing. Humanoids can pick each other up and throw them, ranges depending on the type of character. Like, a fighter can throw further than a mage. Also another important element which you will use often during the course of the game if you want to get through harder levels easier. You can also pick up enemies and toss them if you happen to find it to your advantage.

All the battle elements lead to fun fights, which comprise 80% of the entire game so if you don't like the battles, you're pretty much screwed for this game.

Other gameplay elements are the army building, in which you are able to create generic characters to fight for you, whom you can name and choose the weapon they use and etcetera. D3 also uses a mana system, where you get mana from killing monsters, and you can spend on getting skills or leveling skills up, or 'proposing bills' such as Stronger Enemies which will make all the enemies you face become stronger than they would normally be.

And the fact that you can level up to 9999, get your stats to 90million and your hp to 999million or so, makes the game super mega worth it if you're a crazy bastard.

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SOUND: 7.5/10

It has it's quirky music, as well as the sad music which really sets the atmosphere. The music is varied and the battle effects make battles a lot more bearable, especially for the frustrating ones. Anyway, voiceovers are good and are available in both Japanese and English, so you can choose if you want to listen to english squeaky Mao or the more mature sounding Japanese Mao. Which is still stupid anyway.

Not much to say here, I never really payed attention to it. Though I do plan on downloading the OST for the few sad songs - they are really creepy. :D

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GRAPHICS: 8/10

Even though the entire game is in 2D, I find that to be it's own unique style. Even for a system like the PS3 where the graphics should be godly, you'll find that the 2D style will appeal to most people, even if you were expecting something FF13-esque. Spells are detailed and fun to watch, even after the millionth time, so yeah.

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Overall verdict: 9/10

The game, in my opinion, is a must buy for SRPG fans, and if you are just starting out, you can just rent it first. That is, if you can find a place that lets you rent PS3 games - I'm not so sure if there is one in Singapore. High replayability, fun graphics and good storyline makes this game a must-buy. Even Thomas liked it, like yeah.

...wow I suck at reviewing xD

Thursday, Friday

On Thursday I had to bring like 3 bags to school since there was a Scouts sleepover + drilling session, so I had to bring... 1 slingbag filled with Scout U + a set of normal clothes, my normal school bag + tablet/charger/external/mouse/psp, and a sleeping bag. I guess you can count the one plastic bag filled with my scout shoes also.

School was pretty crap as usual, just stoning for most of the day or getting pissed at Dornel for whatever reason he would give me to get pissed at him. Then after school, me, Zong and Thomas met up - and Dornel tagged along unexpectedly, skipping French along the way. Meh. We all went to Zong's house where I dropped off my tablet/charger/external/mouse and then played World Tour for awhile before we had to go back to School for the drill session.

Drilling was okay I guess, it was a lot more slack than I expected. There was a lot of laughing and shit amongst the drilling so it wasn't like the super strict shitstorm I expected.

Went to sleep arnd 12 because was discussing with Zong about random shit (causing people to think we're gay -.-? ) and then woke up at 3:15 or so. Like, I woke up at 3:15 thinking it was 4:30 and was wondering why nobody woke up together with me. So I stayed up for like 15 mins waiting for people to get up, and finally went to my watch, saw it was 3:15 and was like "fuck".

Went back to sleep, but pretty damn difficult considering how cold the school's aircons tend to be. Woke up at 4:40 I think, poked Zong until he woke up (or did I just kick him.. something aggresive) and then we all changed into Scout U and went ahead for the final drilling session + breakfast.

Our marching was okay I gotta say, considering what we began with. But our SPL screwed up like twice, but I think it's because he had to switch in to replace the other SPL who was supposed to be commanding at the last minute, so he had to learn all the commands in about... 5 or 6 hours, assuming he only had to switch in the night before.

Then during school hours, I was pretty damn sleepy since I only slept about 3 and a half hours in total. Fell asleep, I dunno, 5 or 6 times during Keith Tan's class, but the rest of the classes I managed to stay awake. Weird, I figured of all the classes I'd stay awake in his. Oh whatever.

After school, me, Thomas, Zong and Dornel met up at SAC and waited for Merrill for abt 20 minutes, then we departed for Zong's house for games + BBQ.

Played Nazi Zombies and World Tour for awhile, but soon moved to our tablets. I was expecting us 5 people to go play against pubs, but Zong went to shower and Dornel was being a fag so it was only me Thomas and Merrill against pubs which ended up in epic failure. I guess we aren't good enough to fight ladder pubs yet, not as a team anyway. Then after that they wanted to play IH (Wtf) so we had a few boring games and then went on to play some random maps that Dornel had. The fun one was probably Ninja Duels, even though it was ridiculously lag - the rest were stupid or boring.

Eventually got to the BBQ. Ate seafood and beef and lamb meat. Yar. Saw Zong's cousins (come to think of it, I never introduced myself). Felt a bit bad since it must suck to go to your cousins house to watch your cousin talk with his friends for about 2 hours. Blah, whatever.

Merrill fetched me home and yaddayadda.

Tuesday is the Advanced Mathematics test so I'm really worried for that. At least I can mug for bio but for A math the best thing I can do is to study formulas and do a bit of practice - which I know I have no willpower to do. So, damn. I am so failing A Math. After all, I only got 57.5 for E math - which is supposedly easier (Elementary > Advanced? Dun think so.)

So...

2x^2 +2x + 2 < 0

OMFG b^2 - 4AC < 0

WTF?!

best wishes. good luck to everybody for test results ( a bit late though )
Also; looking forward to Geymarch + my figma Haruhi/Konata

- HARUHIIST

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Zong's suggestion


Thanks to Zong's suggestion, I've decided to put up a comic today just to see the feedback. Anyway it represents what happened a few days ago, and in case you don't know who the other guy is, well, think harder. And also going to put up a.. um... 'literary work' in honor of the trend.

'The sound of rain hitting the concrete floor, drowning out nearly everything. The sky was dark, filled with black clouds that threatened to bolt anyone whom dared to stand before them. And yet, there was one boy - standing on the roof of the dormitory building. His entire body drenched in the cold rain, his hair messy and clinging to his skin, covering his eyes and forehead. His mouth was slightly open, showing a little of his teeth, and in the cold you could see a little bit of mist every time a breath escaped his lips. His white buttoned shirt turned transparent thanks to the rain clung to his body, showing the color of his skin, and even his legs felt the cold caress of his drenched pants clinging to him, drooping lower a little every time a raindrop managed to land on it. His hands were in his pockets, probably the warmest part of his body at that point.

It was a wonder why he stood there, alone, in the cold rain, when he could just walk down a flight of stairs and across a relatively short hallway to his room to enjoy the warmth of the heaters the Academy had provided for each room. Surely he had a reason, a proper reason, to endure such weather. Not only was the rain pouring down hard on him, but the temperature was already extremely cold compared to the norm. But the boy wasn't shivering, he took the full force of the weather, just to enjoy the feeling.

The feeling of standing in the cold rain, the freezing water droplets caressing his bare skin. It calmed him - not that he needed it.

He just loved it - the sweet caress of rain.
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He looked up at the dark sky, his hair parting a little, allowing for his eyes to see through the strands of hair. Thunder boomed, and his mouth closed. He took a step back, and then turned, walking towards the dormitory door. Kicking it open, he began his slow walk down the stairs, his entire body dripping with water from head to toe.'

Well, it's not a very good composition. But yeah.
Don't want criticism for the lit shit, just for the comic - to see if I should bother continuing or not. It only takes 2-3 minutes to draw it out anyway, and will probably always feature my real life

hint: the other person is french


- HARUHIIST

My Nagisa Sticker


I bought this sticker at the EOY '08 which I talked about on this blog around the end of December. I finally get around to putting this on my computer after taking out the ugly stickers on the other side of the tablet pc - the one that says dual centrino whatever. Looks pretty cute on the computer, only thing is that it's under my palm and Im scared that I might rip it out or deform it by accident.


This is what it looks like from a higher view.


The other stickers I have yet to use. If you can't tell, it's Kyou and Fuuko from CLANNAD, and Konata from Lucky Star.

- Haruhiist

And it's out.

http://forums.gameaxis.com/showthread.php?t=1505320

Apparently the first part is considered false because Microsoft would get their entire fortune sued out of them by Sony if it were true.
But the second part has people admitting that they had been recruited by Microsoft to go flame Sony.

Microsoft you bastards.

- Haruhiist

Saturday, February 14, 2009

777


I'm gonna be lucky.

Gamers are Playaz

Today I was playing Garena since around 2 (I was playing Disgaea 3 before that).
I've played 4 games now, I disconnected from the most recent one so I can't say anything about that, but my current record is 2L-1W.

For the 1W one, it was a miracle because we had been raxed in both mid and bot, but we still managed to delay until our luna and potm were super mega fat, and then we proceeded to crush their mid rax and throne in a single shot. The odds were pretty bad against us, matchup was something like [SENT: Earthshaker, POTM, Luna, Bristleback, Tiny - leaver] versus [SCOURGE: Pugna, Zeus, Razor - leaver, superfat Weaver, superfat Jugg]. The razor left around 18 minutes, and we were already being dominated then. Weaver was owning all of us and so was Juggernaut, Zeus and Pugna were going around ganking while me and Tiny were unable to farm. Luna bought lothars of all things instead of the bkb she should've gone, and had no stats items, POTM was the only one doing decent enough and BB went the wrong build.

But somehow we managed to almost break their mid but we never got past the hill that led to their tower. Then they started to repeatedly push into our mid until they finally raxxed it, and somehow they raxxed bottom also. Anyway, after getting Blink Dagger at 40 minutes, things started to brighten up and we managed to keep them under control. To speed this up - around 78 minutes, we all banded together (Tiny had left by then), and blew up their mid in one push.

As for the 2L, the first one was because everyone refused to gank the TB and we got screwed badly when TB unleashed his green balls of fury. The other one was because NO ONE WANTED TO FUCKING WORK TOGETHER. I was solo Zeus against Drow and Magnataur, it was freaking stupid. I got 0-4 by 10 minutes because no one from top or mid wanted to help out, and I was getting really owned (their silence + cold arrows + shockwave/empower was damn pain). Finally around 18 minutes the Windrunner asked me if I needed help, which really pissed me off because I had already said in chat like 4 times 'bot needs help plz'. Basically we got owned.

Meh.

IMO, this proves that most good gamers are romanticists or have girlfriends, because on Valentines day, everyone fucking sucks.

Anyway a bit tired of DotA for the next 2 hours or so. Will play Kanon for awhile and then go Disgaea 3 and probably start DotAing around 10 or so. Tomorrow gonna spend around 2 hours mugging for history. I hope I still have my year 2 History notes somewhere, their like, godly in terms of SBQ help. And probably spend about 1 and a half hours studying League of Nations and Treaty of Versailles.

But so far I know the basics.

- Haruhiist

Friday, February 13, 2009

The usual utterly random shit.

Recently been drawing A LOT in class, eventually I'll post up a few scans on here because I plan on colouring in some of them. After all, practice makes perfect. My ability to lineart with the black art pen I bought recently is better than before, and I can sort of make out the shape of a face and hair without screwing up too much. Currently working on the shape of the face (still), jaw line, neck and shoulders. And of course, the entire body, but currently focusing on breasts and feet.

Today was boring I guess. Went to school, did the chinese exam which I suppose I can pass for but I'm not sure. The rest of the day was uneventful, nothing special to say. Well, except that I managed to get a 74/100 for Chemistry despite studying the wrong chapters. (The test had 0 questions on what I studied, except the definition of an Isotope. The test consisted of questions that had to do with atoms and atomic structures, I studied Heating, Freezing and Sublimination of atoms. Quite fail.) In any case, I'm glad that I beat Dornel even though he studied. This proves that you can't be too tense for an exam, it makes you fuck up more than you usually would. (He said something about screwing up his MCQ. Sorry about that, dude.)

Scouts was also okay. Since our contigen was superbly better than the other one (seriously, never heard such good marching before, I was grinning with pride the whole way), we got our 'reward' first, which was a meal and drinks. Afterwards went home.

So apparantly the outing to go hit on girls tomorrow is cancelled due to some problems, although IMO not too major. Danyal doesn't want to go, okay... one less person. I didn't hear what Thomas said, as far as I know Bristan and Dornel are okay, Merrill has band and Zong has tuition until 12.
This means we can still go out at around 1 and Merrill and Zong are probably still okay. I doubt the valentines couples are going to LAN to play so we probably can get 5 computers easy, and L4D or we can all just go to Zong's house around 12 so that when he's done we can get started on some extreme gaming (and me paying back for the 20 bass songs I owe him).

When you guys read the blog post, tell me if you're busy or whatever. I'm willing to plan this one.
But I'm too lazy to go around asking mah'self. :]

Oh I almost forgot. KANON'S TRANSLATION PATCH FOR SHIORI'S PATH IS OUT AND VOICES ARE COVERED OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMOGMG IM GOING TO FAIL HISTORY ON MONDAY xD

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Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Life's been really boring.

I'm posting for the sake of posting this time. There's been nothing to post about recently.

Common tests are going on right now, and everyone's busier than usual. Of course, after the tests are over, I'm pretty sure we'll go out and have fun together as one group again. Hopefully. I missed the old days where I could walk into the class and know that no matter what lesson was going on, I was going to have fun. Even in Gao Lu's class, sitting near Zong and chatting about whatever random shit, or conversing with Ben Seow about the best way to kill Danyal (which only happened in the first half of the year, before he started calling Danyal a persian prince or something like that).

Nowadays, I sit next to Darren playing paper soccer while Marcus draws breasts on the paper and then writing 'Bubies' only to have it confiscated by the Geog Core teacher.

Sigh. But if you must know about my life:

- Planning on starting to watch my anime next week, and download Bamboo Blade and Minami-ke.

- Has been getting better at DotA recently.

- Hasn't been studying much for the CT's. You probably guessed this anyway.

- A bit emo since I'm not important in SYF nor is my design being used for the jacket anymore. Though I'm curious who made the new design that Zong is talking about. I still haven't seen it yet.

- Doing my homework now, since there's no one reliable in my class to copy since Nicholas Chek moved out.

Sigh. About Saturday's meeting, I don't mind tagging along, even if you guys are going to go hit on girls. I'll probably watch and make sarcastic comments while being pushed into girls by Dornel whenever I say something about him. But in any case, it sounds like fun, as long as we don't disturb any couples, yeah?

Also; about that backpacking trip when we're 20-22. I'm all for it, except getting laid and running away the next day. Might get AIDS. Ewww.

- HARUHIIST

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuutsu Season 2 Cancelled

I'm like one year late on the news, but apparently Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuutsu 2 is cancelled.
In it's place, a story from a different book of the series, The Disappearance of Suzumiya Haruhi (I don't know the Japanese ame) will be animated.

That book focuses on what their lives would be if Haruhi didn't exist, I think.
That's all for now.

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Saturday, February 7, 2009

My latest work of art


My completed work of art for today. I spent roughly 1 to 2 hours on it, drawn in MSPaint. Also; for you curious pervs; she is indeed naked. I was originally emoraging on MSPaint and somehow I ended up with this beautiful piece of art. Anyway, I included the saves I have of my progress just to show you guys how its done :P

Quite proud of this one, the shading is pretty damn good in my opinion. Critique in the CBOX please. (By the way, Blogger screwed up so it's showing the art in the opposite order. From near completion to the draft piece)
Basic colouring done. Wanted to post up the shades after this but only up to 5 images, does Blogger allow. Only hair done. The reason the black lines are suddenly cut off is because MSPaint decided to screw me up the ass for fun. Couldn't erase it so I had to compromise.

Only the eyes coloured, the basic lineart I did after the draft.
The draft with eyes coloured. I originally wanted to post this up with the name 'Hopeful Eyes' but then I ended up colouring the whole thing.


Once again - Critique in the CBOX please.
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Sigh

To, you know, appeal to the sensitive tastes of my audience, I will refrain from using words that are widely considered vulgarities. Or at least, I'll try to.

Woke up today at like 10 and went into the study room to attend tuition still half asleep. All I did to wake myself up was brush teeth and wash face and sprinkle water on my hair, since the teacher was already waiting for me. tuition went rather well, a nice short one hour and sometimes tuition is pleasant, since when I manage to learn my spelling rather fast and well. Got out of tuition and showed. Looked around the internet for music and found a nice album to add to my short playlist. Then my family went out to eat ramen at Great World City, where me and my bro were given $200 to spend from our red packet money. So we bought a new pair of earphones for me, a new HDMI cable for the Playstation 3 since our old one broke, and Disgaea 3. Went home rather happy.

Basically that's it. Since I'll be playing DotA for the rest of the night and will probably be ridiculously enraged by then, I figure I might as well post now so I don't rage on my blog later.

See you, my dear friends.
P.S. If there's anyone of us that's REALLY going insane, it's gotta be me. And I have Dornel to thank for it.

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Friday, February 6, 2009

The, as you say, normal post

But first, a response to my CBOX comments, which I want to stress on.
@Dornel: Fuck you.
@Bristan: Even if it's just a game, losing 7 times in a row is going to get on anyone's nerves.

Anyway, back to the 'my life' topic.

Went to school as usual, but when I got off the school bus, I tripped on... well... something, and completely flew out of the bus, my plastic bag filled with scouts stuff flying ahead of me, and I landed on both of my knees, in a sort of praying position, except my arms were limp at my side and my face had a 'WTF just happened' kind of expression. Anyway, this left bleeding cuts on my left knee and the skin on my right knee looked like it had been torn off. And so I went upstairs to clean up in the toilet.

I think for the Elementary Mathematics paper, well, I'm screwed. I only answered enough questions to give me 18 marks over a total of 40, assuming that I even got those questions correct. I don't want to go for E Math remedial, damnit...

Aftewards, we went for P.E. The people who almost failed NAPFA and the people who DID fail NAPFA had to go for a short exercise, where we had to run 2 laps as warm-up first. Then the teacher asked us to run one round in under 85 seconds, and we all ran. Expectedly, Dornel ran along me, taunting me for like half the way, and made me fucking pissed as usual. Don't know what's wrong with him, fucking jackass. Then we rested for about 4 minutes, and then we had to go on another round to beat 75 seconds, which if we managed to do, he would let us off for reccess. This time instead of sprinting the whole way, I jogged for the entire lap and spammed the last 50 metres or so, and managed to make it at 73 seconds I think.

Then Darren told me he wanted to get a green form and asked me if I wanted to get one also, and so I figured I might as well. The topics for the rest of the day were boring and even if I went for Scouts I'd ask to be excused because of the bleeding cuts on my knees, which would seriously sting during a marching session. So I went ahead and took a green form, got Mr. Arzami to sign and then met up with a few people in the SAC while waiting for Darren to tell me if he could fetch me home or not. Met up with David, who jokingly was pissed about my green form, Danyal, whom I couldn't even tell if he was actually mad or just shouting for fun, Ben Seow, who ignored me, Zong Chun, who obviously was pissed that I was ponning scouts and didn't want to talk to me, and Bristan... whom I didn't really talk to then. No offence to you, of course.

So I went home by taxi since Darren's dad didn't pick up and he had to go home, and arrived home around 11:40. Just sat there with my eyes closed for awhile, then changed into house clothes and lazed around the house for a bit. Maybe at 12:30 or so, I started playing DotA blah blah. Lost 7 games etc etc you get the point.

And here comes the customary rant with every 'normal post'.

Fuck you Dornel. What the hell is wrong with you? Is it that fun to taunt me about everything I do wrong? The fact that you already found your way into my private virtual life (which I assume you haven't told anyone yet) was already enough to piss me off, and then you come to me talking about it like it's a normal thing. Seriously. Chances are after you read this you're gonna come and give me a lecture, be pissed at me and argue with me about how friends should tell their friends all their deepest darkest secrets because 'thats what friendship is', or just block me completely.

Fucking sick of it.

Also; normal life is boring and mundane. When will something exciting happen?
Awaiting GayFest March '09

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Defence of the Ancients - Fuck you

Knowing me, despite having a rantpost on DotA and everything about it, including the client which I use to play it, I will still continue to play it and deal with the fucking rage that I feel when I play DotA.

Like WHAT THE FUCK. No matter how much I fucking play DotA, it's either a retarded team with all the right heroes but don't know how to combo them or refuse to try, a retarded team with all the wrong heroes which leads to GG before 30 minutes, a retarded team that thinks their pro and fail epicly at their comboes, a good team with 0 team work and no unity or decent team with all the wrong heroes.

By Haruhi, why the hell am I so unlucky to get so many stupid people on my team?! I mean sure, I do suck, but at least I try to rally up the team for ganks. I've only played 2 games today, both of them where my lane is utter bullshit and in both of them when I called for help I never got it. When I asked someone to get a nice team ulti hero (e.g. Rooftrellen, Tidehunter, Earthshaker, Magnataur), no one fucking gets it, so I have to get it myself. And when I DO use my ultimate, no one bothers to finish anyone off.

And then there's fucking retarded pubbies who think their pro. They ask PA to solo a lane against Windrunner and Vengeful Spirit, don't ask, and when I have a score of 0-4 at 10 minutes they call me a noob and ask me to leave.

Yeah.

FUCK YOU.

Bloodyfuckingfuckermcfuckingfuckerishfuckingnoobfuckerpubsingaporeanfuckers.

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Monday, February 2, 2009

Today's events

Went to school as normal, blah blah, etc etc. After school, was really flustered about having to go to scouts, since my leg was hurting like hell from having to run 2.4km during Phys. Ed, considering I haven't run so fast in 3 months now. And the astroturf is a lot different from the track, I really don't think I'll ever get used to the uneven ground, it really hurts your feet a lot more than a flat solid ground like the track. Anyway, because of that pain in my leg, which is still quite evident, I was scared that maybe I'd screw up a lot during the marching and have to look like an idiot infront of everybody if I ask if I can rest because of a generic reason like "my leg pain". There's also the factor that drilling for 3 hours after a stressful day of school really sucks. I guess I could say that I had to study for Geog but I never did it anyway, even though I came home without attending scouts. In the end, I just told one of the in-charge that I was involved in Drama's SYF rehearsal and they let me off.

Afterwards on the bus ride home, it was kind of normal, took a 74 bus to Dover MRT and waited roughly 10 minutes for the 105 bus to come. When I boarded the bus, it was kinda empty so I sat somewhere, and unexpectedly, about 2 stops before where I get off, a girl (roughly 20 years old?) sat next to me, blocking my way out, and my body tensed up. Anyway, at the stop before my normal stop, I was waiting for the bus to move and anxious to get out because the time between the stop before my stop and my actual stop is only about 30 seconds, and I didn't want to miss my stop and have to walk across 2 roads and a bridge, so I used time as a guide, and about 20 seconds or so after the bus doors closed, I ringed the bell, and tapped the girl's shoulder, and asked her to move. Of course, I didn't expect her to be so lazy, and just move her body sideways, which was freaking stupid since she could've just stood up for a few seconds to make everyones life easier.

Instead, I had to squeeze between the chair, my bag, and her bag, and my left earphone dropped out in the process and I almost dropped my bag. Then I almost fell, hitting my head against the metal bar, but managing to press the button, and I stumbled infront of the bus doors, only to find out the freaking bus hadn't even moved an inch. I looked outside the bus doors, irritated, as the doors opened up for me, and not wanting to bother everyone and look like an idiot, I pretty much exclaimed 'Ah what the hell!' and then got off the bus, stuffing my left earphone in my... left ear, and putting my bag on right. As the bus drove past me while I walked the short distance to my house gates, I watched as all the old people in the back of the bus just looked at me, while I had my hands deep in my pockets and my really, I assume, pissed off face.

Got home and started watching Rosario+Vampire which had just finished torrenting. When I think about it, torrenting a new anime series right before the exams were about to start was probably a damn big mistake. My original plan was to just mug for Geog since I thought my download wouldn't be done yet, but apparantly it did, along with CLANNAD After Story episode 16. And so I watched my CLANNAD episode, along with about 6 episodes of R+V, until I realised it was already 6 and I would soon have to go for tuition. Well, now it's 12 midnight, and I still haven't read much about Geog, I'm pretty much screwed for this common test.

...Average day, huh.
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Sunday, February 1, 2009

One big round

I'm coming back around from that big circle, where the starting point is where I have no friends, or friends but I don't talk to them much anymore, and the middle of this path is where everyone is being friendly and nice to each other and we go out a lot. It may have to do with the fact that we're in two different streams now, or that we have school to attend and we can't go out together much anymore, but it seems me and Dornel are seperating from the rest of the friends that moved to IP, or it may even just be me.

It's kind of depressing, really, and recently the only thing I've been spending my time on is DotA. I don't even have the spirit and watch the 3 anime series I have waiting in my external. I spend my weekends at home, sleeping in the early AM's and waking up late, at like 12, and spend the rest of the day stoning. I have no willpower to do anything anymore.

And tests are coming up, sigh. The only thing that's going good in my life right now is that my art skills are getting better, but on the other hand, everything else is going downhill. Friends, spirit, DotA skills, and some other things.

Sigh

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